7 years.

31 Dec 2011 ♥ 

Our dearest jenna went over to Aussieland today. Like what Meixuan says, it will be weird not sending out mass texts to 9 recipients, which we all have been doing so for 7 years. We'll have 8 recipients to send texts to from now on, for awhile.

Love this bunch of sisters (Y)!

p.s. Can't believe there are two other izzad-like characters in the comm! Trying to read my blog entries out loud in the excoroom omg so weirddddd hahaha.

Inspirations; Inspire, Inspired.

Happy 2012! :) 

Totally failed, was supposed to post a "looking back at 2011..." entry but I guess my time management isn't too good! With all the work that I'm supposed to do, I can only postpone and submit that entry at a later date. 

But anyway, am taking a break from work! Came across a really meaningful quote and decided to share it. 

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."  -Unknown

Life :)

Brighter than the sun.

December love. 

2012 is just ahead of us, it is time for me to do the final post of the year soon, again. Have been doing a collage at the end of each year since 3 years ago I think? But I haven't got to this year's yet, reason - no time :( As lazy as it sounds, I really haven't been able to find 2-3 hours to sit down in front of the comp, filter through one whole year's worth of pictures and create the collage. But soon soon, I'll get it done and posted before we greet 2011 goodbye! :)

OTC is over! And I really enjoyed the camp a lot. Although this time I'm no longer out there rahrah-ing with fellow GLs most of the time, but still, I have had my own share of fun and laughter with the subcomms and maincomms. I survived the 4-days camp with just 5 hours of sleep in total! Yes, in total, and not 5 hours per day. *beams* Okay, maybe it's nothing to be proud of hahaha. But the hours that I stay awake = precious time spent with fellow friends. Anyway, it is my last OTC! Mixed feelings. As each remaining SU event draws closer, it simply reminds me that we're inching towards Graduation. I feel pretty $%&#@! sometimes when I think about life after TP. $%&#@! because I have no exact word to fit in that sentence. All the memories, friends, experiences, lessons etc are things that are extremely precious! It feels different to walk in school now, especially at the Triangular Garden towards SDC. It feels like it's a walk down memory lane kinda thing! Especially since that route leads to the Students' Lounge for me, which I'm proud to say - my second home.

And ooooh speaking of which, I brought mummy to Lounge on Saturday! The feeling was strangely heart-warming. To bring my mum to somewhere that I'm so proud of; somewhere that I've spent almost 2 years of my TP life at, somewhere that I've slogged my guts out together with 12 other friends who eventually become my family in school, somewhere so close to heart. I was so excited! Wanted to literally introduce every single thing we had in lounge, wanted to let her see the meeting room where each of us sits according to position, wanted to show her our mini pantry, our workspace, our storeroom, our counter, the SU Plaque mounted at the entrance of lounge, the facilities and games etc, everythinggggg. If I was to exaggerate further, I would say that I could feel myself literally glowing when I was showing my mum around. Allow me to go into self-praise mode for once, *screams* but I really felt damn proud of myself that day. Not sure if anyone can understand this feeling but I'm pretty sure the maincomms do :)

Would like to urge all to really enjoy everyyyyy single moment you have in TP. In fact - not only enjoy, but to cherish as well :) Live your TP life to the fullest!

Step by step

^^ 

17 December was awesome! OTC Subcomm Workshop :) Spent 14 hours in school but really felt that everything was worth it, all the running around, preparation etc. Carried out by the 7 people you see above, heh heh. At the end of the day, we were all reeeeaaally tired, but I know we enjoyed ourselves a lot, just like the subcomm members. Tired's an understatement!

When I started being in SU as a subcomm in year 1 and so on, I never really imagined myself being part of otc/fo's sub-committee department (foodmin, log, prog), never. When I think about it sometimes, I really amaze myself by things that I thought I'd never do/carry out/become/think of etc. Being in Logistics really opened my eyes to a different side of the camp scene. We always think that logistics = saikang warrior. But seriously, there's so much more than what meets the eye. Being with the loggers and doing all these log preparations for these recent months, I have come to a conclusion that the subcomm departments are like the base of a pyramid. I have learnt so much from the experienced loggers, and learnt so much from the process of preparations! I am really awed by the level of dedication and commitment they have towards Logistics. The kind of experience and knowledge that they have about Log; are things that I feel are really valuable and fantastic! Am so glad that the loggers are such a fun bunch of people to be with! Will never ever be able to experience all this and gain all these insights if I didn't step into the department. I'd never realize how tough their jobs are and how much it actually takes for one to be a logger! The sense of accomplishment at the end of the day is really (Y). I have never done so much preparation and got soooo busy before the start of a camp before. As a GL and then an FA, all I did was like just "wait" for the camp to arrive and then all the action will take place during the three days.

This year, something else besides logistics department made the camp even more exciting and awesome for me - FLP (FoodLogProg)! The 7 of us are totally enjoying this FLP feeeel! :) I think it's really cool that the FLP heads are close. Am glad I have them around!

Haven't had so much fun and yet felt so tired in a long while already! :)

Am so ready to hibernate and repay some sleep debts, making 'full' use of the Sunday morning.

Everything has beauty.

It's December, the last month of the year - 2012 is just around the corner.

Maybe it's just me, but I feel that December is a month that kinda brings you on some emotional ride, up and down. Besides the festive occasion, the celebration, the count-down, the gatherings, the joy of giving and receiving etc, there's also the point of time when you take some time out, alone, and think about the past 11 months, reflect and ponder upon all the happenings and events. I like to think about things (a good and bad trait), and I definitely like to think about what the future has in hold for me, what is going on currently, as well as what has gone by.

I think December is a month of realization. As we look back, we see the changes we've been through, the changes we see in people and situations, the decisions we made and the outcomes that they lead to. It's a month where we, like farmers, reap what we sow. While some of us look forward to the beginning of a new year, I reckon there are others who wish that they could go back to months ago and relive some moments. For me, I kinda belong to the middle portion in a sense cos I am looking forward to a new year, but however, I would want to travel back in time too (not that it's possible, but just sayinggg). It's been a wonderful year nonetheless and again, I have grown as an individual; a little more than the last perhaps. Looking ahead, I see big events; d&d, fow/c, week 0 and sadly, graduation. I don't think I have dreaded graduation this much before honestly. Back then thinking about AHS times, I was very much looking forward to poly life and all. This goes to show how much TP has played a part in my life, or more specifically - TPSU. It has changed my student life drastically, I have learnt and experienced so much! ♥

I take pride in my work, I think I am close to being a perfectionist, we all only want the best for the Union, Union is practically in my mind the whole day ;) Hm. I'm the kind of person who will rather do things on your behalf if I see that you're not putting your heart and soul into it, because the work produced will only be a work that's completed half-heartedly and probably out of obligations :c Maybe I won't bother explaining how tired I am, because I'd rather divert that "frustration" into productive and positive energy. To me, one should be accountable for your actions. And actions speak louder than words. I know it's bad to keep those negative energy to myself and that I should let things be known. Sometimes, I get so exhausted but then again, at the end of the day, I know it's all going to be worth it!! :) Oh man :( Really sorry I'm like starting to rant. Some people still don't truly understand why we're putting ourselves through all these, but I know they'll never get it because they'll never experience what we're going through. :)

"When something bad happens, you have three choices. You can either let it define you, let it destroy you, or you can let it strengthen you."

Like the wind.

Yr 1, 2 & 3 (TP) Long, medium, short.

Looking back, I came to realize that my hair was really long!! :( Am missing my longgg hair now, a little. And come to think of it, three different lengths/style for my three years in TP (Y). Next year? Pixie cut? Hahaha just kidding, I don't think I'm that bold to try the pixie cut look yet.

In year 1 of TP and for the past years, I never imagined myself with short hair. I just couldn't bear to snip my hair off. Each time I went to my hairdresser every once in a few months, it was always the same instructions "just trim 1-2 inch max". It was never "I want to cut my hair till mid length", never. Till last year after I entered comm. I never dreamed of having short hair either, till last week. Told my hairdresser " I want to cut it short". And here I am. No more pony tail! Tried to tie one, but failed.

Had people asking me things like "What was in your mind!?" "What happened!!" "Why?!" "What made you do that?" when I appeared with my new length. "Very short leehhhh". Hahaha, yes I agree too. It is definitely short to me. The last time I had hair of this length, lemme think, kindergarten? According to photographs, yes - it was kindergarten. From then, I never had short hair. All the way till last year, 13 yearrrrrs. I don't know why either, but I just felt like trying out something new before I get too old to experiment new lengths, I guess?

It's been long since I updated. Terribly ashamed of how much effort I am putting in to this blog. I can scroll down a little more and even see the first few blog posts of this new AY!!! It's not that I don't think that much anymore, neither is it because I don't have the interest in writing anymore. I still love writing :) It's just that as I grow older, I come to realize that maybe your own thoughts should just be kept to yourself sometimes. I understand a blog is a space for individuals to pen down their thoughts, share their feelings, express their emotions and record down different life events. But it's just like Twitter. Sometimes we feel like tweeting something personal, yet we end up hitting the backspace or delete button, or simply closing the tab. Why? Because; we're not sure of how to respond when people question our tweet or when people ask you about it? Do we respond accordingly and share the truth? Or do we just try to brush it off and hope that our friends forget about seeing the tweet? Or maybe it's because we want to empty our hearts out so badly but yet we're not sure if it's a good idea to pour everything out via the internet. Can think of so many reasons of why people don't fully express themselves via platforms like Blogs, Twitter etc anymore. I am one of them, heh heh heh :)

I used to be an avid blogger back in secondary school days - i blog about every single little tiny weeny thing HAHA. But as I came into Poly, things kind of changed. And when I became an exco in year 2, things changed even more. I know I changed in this aspect because I became more sensitive about and towards things. I know I don't crap and joke and say retarded things and ask stupid questions and blurt out nonsensical funny stuff as much as before. I became a little more, serious (?). Do I miss the old me? Do I resent this change? Thinking about it, I'd say that this is part of growing up and experiencing (and going through) changes. It's part of discovering who I am and finding out more about myself.

Am still just ordinarily me c:  I still enjoy simple pleasures in life (erhem cheap thrills), enjoy my friends and closed ones' company, love to chit chat and HTHT, love to daydream and stone, love to read and listen to music, love going crazy with girlfriends doing things that we love, love to watch drama serials/variety shows and laugh till I cry or end up being touched by the scenes till I also end up crying, love people-watching, love traveling, love writing, love photography. Am still contented with life albeit all the ups and downs :)

Only when we change and grow, we'll see a world we never know.

monotone. monochrome. monologue.

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Domino

Uncanny Similarities.

I'm probably going to start regretting everything that I'm doing right now at this hour in about 12 hours time. I should be sleeping, but I'm not. I could have slept for 5 hours, but here I am now sacrificing my sleep. I know it's gonna be a long day tomorrow cos there's OTC meeting after SIP and I am totally trying to challenge myself by depriving myself of sleep. Have no idea why but I just feel like typing :) Strange.

Didn't go to work today cos am not well, and boss is not well too! (I secretly wish she'd send me a text to tell me to work from home tomorrow too, cos i'm reaaaally sick and tired but I dont wanna take MC) So spent the day settling some union stuff, rushed to school for an interview w some CCD people followed by *screams* D&D meeting! It's like something that I've been waiting for since a long time ago!! Happiest day of the week, i think. Sent clarebaby off after that! TAKE CARE THERE BABE ♥ ! SEE YOU WHEN YOU'RE BACK! :)

Have you ever asked yourself why you're doing whatever you're doing now? And how often is the answer, "Because I'm expected to" ? So what would you do if you wake up tomorrow morning and are entitled to do anything that you want? So why aren't we doing what we want to do or would love to do? Man. I must stop having these kind of whatever-you-categorise-them-under thoughts.

But anyway, a shout-out to Crystal and Nianqi; thanks for being so understanding and caring. It really is heartwarming to know that people do feel,understand and know how you're feeling and how much you've put in :) And Dom! And Grace! And Fionn! And HeeHeeHee (LIM YI JIE)! And a few more people out there! ^^ There was a short period of time when I actually started to doubt something which I believe in - "sincerity moves people". But thank goodness for friends! Me is blessed to have really nice friends around, it may not be a huge ass number, but am contented ^^

Should I get iPhone 4s? I think i should right. My phone is so cui already. But I really like the 3Gs :( And the news woke me up today, Straits Time iPhone app had a notification announcing SteveJobs' death, and for a few seconds I couldn't believe what I was reading! Big news. Everyone was tweeting about it, news was practically all over.

Been listening to quite a lot of songs by CNBlue recently, gosh they're kinda cuteeeee.

And we'll just cry, until it's all gone.

Myctophobia

I yearn for a simple life. But because it's too simple, it seems unattainable. Life's like that, guess it is just not meant to be simple all the time. I feel happy with music and books, even though I may take long to complete a book because I keep switching from book to book. (Bad idea to get 4-5 books within a short period of time) We're all fighting tough battles, different stories behind every pair of eyes. Everyone goes through their own share of tough times, live and let live.

It's funny how I'm having so many strange thoughts these days, been thinking a lot.

Like the morning light,

“Life sometimes gets so bogged down in the details, you forget you are living it. There is always another appointment to be met, another bill to pay, another symptom presenting, another uneventful day to be notched onto the wooden wall. We have synchronized our watches, studied our calendars, existed in minutes, and completely forgotten to step back and see what we've accomplished.”

― Jodi Picoult, My Sister's Keeper

Recently, time seems to be passing doubly fast. From time to time, the fact that I'm in my final year and almost in my final term hits me and I'll just stone for a while. Then I think about my school life in TP, it's been an amazing one; no wonder they always say that time flies by when you're having fun. You know there's always this moment when you enter your thinking mode? You just think about things, all kinds of things as well as people. Good or bad, happy or sad. And when people ask you what you're thinking of, you just can't seem to find the exact answer for that question. Simply cos you're thinking about almost everything you can remember at that moment. Some people like long bus rides, others perhaps prefer staring into space, people-watching, day-dreaming, blasting music, reading or even penning their thoughts down. The kind of thing that people do to trigger their thoughts, many.
I've come to better understand myself this year, I think. Or maybe this happens to everyone as they age another year.

But then, sometimes I reach a stage where I think that many are just furthering their studies because of societal expectations or norms, perhaps? behavioral treatments? I don't know. Okay and of course, we all know that education brings us a better life in the future. So how many of us are actually pursuing a field of study that we actually like? Okay, maybe we do like it now. But then again, how many of us are actually pursuing a field of study that we actually see ourselves in that particular industry 20 years down the road? I'm in the school of Humanities and Social Sciences. I am not sure if I can see myself doing social research and stuff like that for years. Was talking to a close friend and she mentioned that when we're young, we tend to want to do things that we like and we feel that as long as we like what we're doing, it's good. But then there will be a point of time when you will scrape that thought and just go for something that brings you good money.
I have no idea where I'm heading towards actually :/ Sometimes, it's funny - when we are given different paths, we whine about being spoilt for choice. And yet when we are only directed on one path, we whine that we have no choice. Hahaha, go figure :)


OH AND I BOUGHT LIKE 4-5 NEW BOOKS ^^ HAPPY ME. Tony Parsons, Jodi Picoult, Audrey Niffengger, Mitch Albom. Say Hello to Miss Bookworm, she's finally back! :)

Life.

Cheap thrills.

Not gonna be a proper blog post but am just gonna post something that I came across earlier on. I find it really really meaningful! So here goes:

"Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.

Every evening, the bank deletes whatever part of the balance which you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course.

Each of us has such a bank. Its name is TIME.

Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.

Every night it writes off as lost, whatever you have failed to invest to a good purpose.

It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.

If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "Tomorrow."

You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success. The clock is running. Make the most of today.

To realize the value of one year, ask a student who failed a module.

To realize the value of one month, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week, ask the editor of a weekly magazine.

To realize the value of one hour, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of one minute, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realize the value of one second, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realize the value of one millisecond, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have. And treasure if more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. And remember, time waits for no one. "

Have a good weekend.

ketchup#2

I think it's the first time I'm actually blogging from Lounge :) I think.

Am super duper tired today omg; sleeping at 4 is not a good idea at all, although it gives me time to do my own things. Was rushing like mad this morning for SandraGoh's class cos I don't wanna be late for her class! She's too nice and sweet already :) Went to the library (zzzz) for project, stuck there for almost 3 hours and finally - home sweet home (of course, i'm referring to lounge).

ON A LIGHTER NOTE, I talked to Izzad on MSN for a pretty long time today! Just 37 more days till he's back! :)

Last week of school this week! :) And it's Hello to Internship!

ketchup#1.

'Busy bee' was what Kaho called me when we were texting the other day, boo.

Yes I admit I've been caught up with school work, projects, union, assignments, union, meetings, submissions etc. And when you really sit down during your own personal time and think about things, you'll find that you're pretty clueless about what else is going on, especially among your friends who are not in the same campus as you. That's not the worst, I don't even have time to meet up with friends who are IN TP. Really longing for some free time to do my own things. I must be going mad because I actually kind of long for time to clean up my room! Reallyyyy going mad because I used to be convinced that Aquarius girls are happy living with their own clutter. They won't even use the word "clutter". But now I kind of want to tidy up my room! So tell me, am I going mad or what.

Anyway, updates updates (peeeektures!):

Gaen's 21st was a simple yet good one. Headed down with Fionn Jiajun & Kelbanzai. Met Evan there cos this woman went alone! Anyway, Gaen customized button badges for her guests, very cute and unique! :) Her 21st was held at The Chamber Bar @ Robertson Walk. First time there, pretty nice place to chill with friends; mediterranean style pub, outdoor seating, large TV screen, indoor pool tables.

The Chamber Bar & Bistro

11 Unity Street

Robertson Walk, Robertson Quay

Sent Darren off to Perth on the 4 July together with the ex-excos! Only Kai, Dillon, Evan, Bern, Fionn and I managed to make it. Got him a gift and a card! :) Bernita was being sneaky, she had some letter prepared for Darren beforehand. Opps opps ^^ HAHA. Anyway, spent some time with the ex-excos after that at Ya Kun (I THINK; can't rem), awesome time spent catching up :) And bernita started tweeting about missing Darren already, hahaha aww. A pity Darren chose to further his studies, if not he'd still be our advisor. He's a really nice guy! Always helping us, playing along with us during our retarded moments, guiding us and giving us his most honest opinions :')

Update again soooon, till then.