heartbeats

K, it's almost 12am. Meaning that Monday is just right ahead of us now.

My mind is a blank now, I have dreamt of horrible numbers like 17, 21, 24 and 27. It's freaky i tell you. I'm so going to run away if its horrible. I dont even dare to think of a possible number that I'll get. I was thinking, when I was in P6, what was my mood/feelings when I was about to get the report book. I know it's a different thing cos this is like OMG OLVLS. The VERY IMPT EXAM and all, cos it'll determine certain things.

I wonder what the atmosphere will be like in the hall tomorrow. I think hundreds of hearts will start beating faster than ever before in their life so far. I think even if someone cracked a really funny joke, I wont be able to laugh. In fact, I think I wont even be able to concentrate on the joke. Or maybe I'll start having selective hearing, I'll only hear those crucial words like "L1R5, L1R4, MSG, percentage, band etc". I know I'll start freaking out like MAD tomorrow when I'm in the hall and will probably just start grabbing people's hands so that I have something else to do besides being anxious like crazy. Should I just look at the results immediately or should I take some time to make sure I'm sane before I see it? I honestly feel like NOT KNOWING my results. SERIOUSLY. I dont mind not knowing!!! I know it's impossible but I dont know if I can mentally make it, to see the slip, to look at the number, to look at anything on the slip. Goodness ):

This is so scary. They should come up with some other ways to reveal the results, i'm serious. Even though I have no suggestions how, but this is just so scary. It's bad for the heart, I'm sure I'll have a heart failure tomorrow if things go wrong.

Of course of course, Good luck BESTEST BEST OF LUCK to every single person receiving their results tomorrow. Yes, not only my friends, but the whole sec4'08 cohort of SG receiving results.

I need truckloads of luck man.